Cynical Grin

A few days ago I got the confirmation, that no matter of what I feel inside I still can hide it all behind the mask of success and even glory. I still can make people dizzy in just a half an hour, and they never know, that actually what is standing in front of them is far more depressive, gloomy and dark-minded. I don't know, how it is possible, because my inner state is so devastated at the moment... But the ones who are already used to constant communication and who are actually hard to surprise - they still react like if there was something utterly enchanting in me. Headbanging and heart-eating journalist... Sounds at least funny. But maybe this is really what I should do in my life if it goes so well?..